and Bailey, i hope this msg teleports to u... i miss u so much! i miss cuddling u... i miss u...
i'll always keep u in my prayers... althou i cant be with u... i wanna let u know i still love u so much... pls dont forget me....
im sitting here in macs... pleaded with dad and mum today regarding adopting the poor schnauzer tt nobody wants because
it was born with 'defects'...as expected, they gave me a stern 'no' as an answer. upset, i decided tt i didn't wanna stay home to study today.
i seriously have no idea how ppl can jus dump their dogs like tt, as if they meant nothing to them at all.... if i could.... i wanna save all of them.. i'd wanna bring all these poor little furballs home...and shower them with all the love i can... but i can't....im so useless :(
so here i sat... for the past hour and a half... studying and thinking about the poor little life i failed to save...yes..very emotional.
buthen i suddenly realised... studying isn't so bad... afterall...i've always hated it...i never seemed to have a goal in life... and even my degree, i took it as a joke. i never took it seriously before...
and when i finally thought my life had taken a turn for the better, i was slapped in the face with my results. it didn't turn out as expected. i finally woke up.
today, i have a resolution.
i dont wanna face all these disappointments anymore... im tired of it. im tired of seeing that disappointed look on dad, mum or michi's face. i wanna expec something from myself. i wanna have a goal.
im gonna work hard for my CMFAS papers now, while i continue to pursue my degree part-time. im gonna get a full-time job and pay off all my debts, and study loans. im gonna take up a grooming course and groom those poor little doggies who cant find a loving home. i wanna make them all pretty so they'll find homes easier! and im gonna save up and open a dog shelter where i'll save all the dogs in singapore!! and im gonna constantly upgrade myself with the financial world. im gonna do either acca or cpa! i need to work hard to save these doggies! yes, this is my goal. i've finally found it, i hope it's not too late! im so excited (:
