i got into a car accident on my way to school along tpe.
that was ytd.

im feeling rly awful now i can't exactly describe this feeling.

i already was a liability, now im even worse off. just when i tot everything was changing for the better.
i rly shud get an award for always being able to get myself into deep shit.
rly feel like giving up,giving life up altogether.
occurred to me tt i shud have died along w the accident, at least can claim life insurance.

tears shed, nightmares after nightmares the previous night. yes, very traumatised but pretending im all ok. this splitting headache is getting on my nerves!

had wanted to blog quite an amount but i can't rly find words to describe and i suddenly dont know what to say. this year hasn't been good for me.

i shud buck up and stop being a loser... i always reminded myself constantly the previous months. then i managed to get a job and was preparing to pay off my study loan plus debtors mich and dad. nw everything's gone down the drain i dont see motivation anymore becos how hard i try i always end up in shit, as much as i dont want to.

if there's an easier way to die and make my family feel better or be better off without me, i'd do it. i can't stand this emotional torture anymore! i can't stand being stepped on by the words they say sometimes. i feel rly depressed. i wish i died.